Confusion.


Why things become like this,
I also don't know,
what i want.
committed so much,
its true i that i did not
gain nothing.
but I'm just feeling tired of
every little thing.
sales bad, what can i do?
force people to buy?
shop messy,
trying my best to arrange
everything in order.
neat n tidy.
but any compliment?
yes? maybe.
working for long hours,
having fun,
at times.
having stress,
most of the time.
decided to leave
but i was asked to stay.
i was told that
everything can be adjust
even the working hours.
suddenly had a
urge to stay.
but when think back,
the days i had
its tiring.
i was told that
I'm a good worker
because of,
my commitment and
not my performance.
so what's the point of
staying?
there's no point of staying.
its indeed that i been
treated well.
but there's thing which
wouldn't explain in words nor
expressing either.
a part of me, don't bear to leave.
other part of me, wish
i would leave asap.
what's wrong with me?
why can't i make up my mind?
but i was afraid to start all over again
i was afraid to adept,
a different place,
a different working style,
a bunch of new working friends.
i don't mind that i quit as a RS
n start all over again as a staff.
but I'm just afraid of .....
well, i not sure what i afraid of?
this is not the first time.
then what is the barrier
that stopping me?
can someone tell me?
I'm stuck'in underneath.
don't know should i get out
or just leave me alone.

(someone who is lost)