why am i still holding on?
i should the one feeling happy.
but I'm not. Why?
thought its already over?
she's already moving on.
i wish i would too
her image is all stores in my mind
can't get her out of it.
i would be happier if i would,
totally forget about her.
I'm selfish,
i took someone as a replacement.
end up both of us suffer.
its easy to say,
but it will never be easy to forget someone
whom you really love deeply with.
its hard for me to commit
on an brand new relationship.
cos I'm tired,
in fact, i dare not to.
in the past,
thought we would last
really thought of.
and i never ever imaged
that she actually fall for a guy.
a guy that ever cused us
out of so many guys out there
why she choose him?
is promises that she gave me
make me feel assure that
she wont leave me.
i gave her my whole heart
but she broke it.
i treated her so nice
always give in to her
whatever she wants,
i will my best to get for her.
but end up what I get in return?
seeing her holding hands
with that fucker?
I guess i had already lost
hope in relationship.
i really don't dare to step into it.
its like a deep pool,
without any flooding object and
at any moment i can be drowned.
it has become a phobia.
a nightmare.
haiz.....
how i wish i can ease everything part of her.
at least i will feel better and i can start moving on.
hope things will come to the end.
anyway i also want her to be happy.
that's my wish for her(:
