A BROKEN VASE
It's like a vase with cracks on it.
the cracks will never disappear,
no matter how u stick it back.
and it'll never a complete one.
(Incomplete)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Confusion.
Why things become like this,
I also don't know,
what i want.
committed so much,
its true i that i did not
gain nothing.
but I'm just feeling tired of
every little thing.
sales bad, what can i do?
force people to buy?
shop messy,
trying my best to arrange
everything in order.
neat n tidy.
but any compliment?
yes? maybe.
working for long hours,
having fun,
at times.
having stress,
most of the time.
decided to leave
but i was asked to stay.
i was told that
everything can be adjust
even the working hours.
suddenly had a
urge to stay.
but when think back,
the days i had
its tiring.
i was told that
I'm a good worker
because of,
my commitment and
not my performance.
so what's the point of
staying?
there's no point of staying.
its indeed that i been
treated well.
but there's thing which
wouldn't explain in words nor
expressing either.
a part of me, don't bear to leave.
other part of me, wish
i would leave asap.
what's wrong with me?
why can't i make up my mind?
but i was afraid to start all over again
i was afraid to adept,
a different place,
a different working style,
a bunch of new working friends.
i don't mind that i quit as a RS
n start all over again as a staff.
but I'm just afraid of .....
well, i not sure what i afraid of?
this is not the first time.
then what is the barrier
that stopping me?
can someone tell me?
I'm stuck'in underneath.
don't know should i get out
or just leave me alone.
(someone who is lost)
Why things become like this,
I also don't know,
what i want.
committed so much,
its true i that i did not
gain nothing.
but I'm just feeling tired of
every little thing.
sales bad, what can i do?
force people to buy?
shop messy,
trying my best to arrange
everything in order.
neat n tidy.
but any compliment?
yes? maybe.
working for long hours,
having fun,
at times.
having stress,
most of the time.
decided to leave
but i was asked to stay.
i was told that
everything can be adjust
even the working hours.
suddenly had a
urge to stay.
but when think back,
the days i had
its tiring.
i was told that
I'm a good worker
because of,
my commitment and
not my performance.
so what's the point of
staying?
there's no point of staying.
its indeed that i been
treated well.
but there's thing which
wouldn't explain in words nor
expressing either.
a part of me, don't bear to leave.
other part of me, wish
i would leave asap.
what's wrong with me?
why can't i make up my mind?
but i was afraid to start all over again
i was afraid to adept,
a different place,
a different working style,
a bunch of new working friends.
i don't mind that i quit as a RS
n start all over again as a staff.
but I'm just afraid of .....
well, i not sure what i afraid of?
this is not the first time.
then what is the barrier
that stopping me?
can someone tell me?
I'm stuck'in underneath.
don't know should i get out
or just leave me alone.
(someone who is lost)
Monday, January 11, 2010
life without her.
why am i still holding on?
i should the one feeling happy.
but I'm not. Why?
thought its already over?
she's already moving on.
i wish i would too
her image is all stores in my mind
can't get her out of it.
i would be happier if i would,
totally forget about her.
I'm selfish,
i took someone as a replacement.
end up both of us suffer.
its easy to say,
but it will never be easy to forget someone
whom you really love deeply with.
its hard for me to commit
on an brand new relationship.
cos I'm tired,
in fact, i dare not to.
in the past,
thought we would last
really thought of.
and i never ever imaged
that she actually fall for a guy.
a guy that ever cused us
out of so many guys out there
why she choose him?
is promises that she gave me
make me feel assure that
she wont leave me.
i gave her my whole heart
but she broke it.
i treated her so nice
always give in to her
whatever she wants,
i will my best to get for her.
but end up what I get in return?
seeing her holding hands
with that fucker?
I guess i had already lost
hope in relationship.
i really don't dare to step into it.
its like a deep pool,
without any flooding object and
at any moment i can be drowned.
it has become a phobia.
a nightmare.
haiz.....
how i wish i can ease everything part of her.
at least i will feel better and i can start moving on.
hope things will come to the end.
anyway i also want her to be happy.
that's my wish for her(:
i should the one feeling happy.
but I'm not. Why?
thought its already over?
she's already moving on.
i wish i would too
her image is all stores in my mind
can't get her out of it.
i would be happier if i would,
totally forget about her.
I'm selfish,
i took someone as a replacement.
end up both of us suffer.
its easy to say,
but it will never be easy to forget someone
whom you really love deeply with.
its hard for me to commit
on an brand new relationship.
cos I'm tired,
in fact, i dare not to.
in the past,
thought we would last
really thought of.
and i never ever imaged
that she actually fall for a guy.
a guy that ever cused us
out of so many guys out there
why she choose him?
is promises that she gave me
make me feel assure that
she wont leave me.
i gave her my whole heart
but she broke it.
i treated her so nice
always give in to her
whatever she wants,
i will my best to get for her.
but end up what I get in return?
seeing her holding hands
with that fucker?
I guess i had already lost
hope in relationship.
i really don't dare to step into it.
its like a deep pool,
without any flooding object and
at any moment i can be drowned.
it has become a phobia.
a nightmare.
haiz.....
how i wish i can ease everything part of her.
at least i will feel better and i can start moving on.
hope things will come to the end.
anyway i also want her to be happy.
that's my wish for her(:
life is short.
as the time passes,
a lot of things happen recently.
things are different from the past,
people are getting older,
everything has been changing.
somethings become better,
somethings become more worst.
when talk about life,
what can we say?
life is short,
anything can happen to us at any moment.
living in this world,
can i say that the only goal everyone have is to study hard,
earn lots money,
get married, set up a family,
in Eventually u gets old and die one day
and everything has to be remained in this world.
Everything u own,
will passes down to someone else.
(so whats the point?)
Haiz, so what if i keep working so hard?? i mean 12 hours a day, can't even had a chance to chat with my parent. i really don't have any time left for my family n friends. its true to say that family always come first. because if anything happens, your family members Will always be there for u. I really don't care what i have already archived on my career. after my grandma passes away, has make me realised anyone can just leave. anyday. anytime.
anyway, i really need a break!!! i need some rest can? just let me resign ba. if i choose to stay, it won't the same old me. because i had already lost instest in it, so no point forcing me to stay. really no point. pls just let me go....
Friday, May 9, 2008
not bad right!! i cook de wor!!
u better finsh up the whole luchbox!!
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