A brand new life ahead of me
with lots of goals n aims
yes!! this should be the way right??
i'm gonna led a new lifestyle!!
a healthy lifestyle??
haha!!
i hope I'm able to do it? haha!!
anyway I'm gonna give it a try!
although i know its freaking hard
for me because I've two great friends
whose love to make me eat n eat!!
opps!! haha!!
and I'm gonna earn more money
by working OT everyday!!
save lots money!! =D
I wanna go TRAVELING!!!
I wanna to live my life with no regrets.
I finally realised why everyone need
to have a dreams or goals.
because without all these,
life would be meaningless n boring.
welcome my new life!!!!
cheers!! Everyone(:
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
LOve message....
Baby,
u must be wondering why i always send u home,
without any complain?
u must be thinking what motive i have right??!!
haha!! nothing la....
cause that's my duty(:
my duty is to see u home safe and sound.
beside my duty, i also wish to spent more time with u(:
As long as u are with me, I'm not going to let u go alone.
unless, something crop??
haha!!
like i always say, no one is perfect
so at times I'll treat like u know...
especially when problems occurs
that's y I'll try to do anything,
which able to make up to u...
I also want u to see the best in me!
although no one knows how
long we could last?
that is why i always cherishes
every moments with u...
Cause, I wan u feel that u are the most
blessed lady in the world(:
I'm not only going treat u well for now,
I'm gotta treat u better as the time goes by...
problems will definitely occurs
is common in every relationships.
we need face problems, in order to
grow n think mature.
its the same like our relationship,
we need to we need face lots of problems
so that our relationship would be stronger n lasting.
am i right baby??
problems let our relationship grows stronger,
being with u, makes my life even better,
looking at u, make my heart beat jump even faster!
haha!!!
Baby,
I don't care how people look or think about us,
as long as we are together
you are the only person i could see.
I love u wholeheartedly.
(i do enjoy every moments, every minutes, every second with u)
u must be wondering why i always send u home,
without any complain?
u must be thinking what motive i have right??!!
haha!! nothing la....
cause that's my duty(:
my duty is to see u home safe and sound.
beside my duty, i also wish to spent more time with u(:
As long as u are with me, I'm not going to let u go alone.
unless, something crop??
haha!!
like i always say, no one is perfect
so at times I'll treat like u know...
especially when problems occurs
that's y I'll try to do anything,
which able to make up to u...
I also want u to see the best in me!
although no one knows how
long we could last?
that is why i always cherishes
every moments with u...
Cause, I wan u feel that u are the most
blessed lady in the world(:
I'm not only going treat u well for now,
I'm gotta treat u better as the time goes by...
problems will definitely occurs
is common in every relationships.
we need face problems, in order to
grow n think mature.
its the same like our relationship,
we need to we need face lots of problems
so that our relationship would be stronger n lasting.
am i right baby??
problems let our relationship grows stronger,
being with u, makes my life even better,
looking at u, make my heart beat jump even faster!
haha!!!
Baby,
I don't care how people look or think about us,
as long as we are together
you are the only person i could see.
I love u wholeheartedly.
(i do enjoy every moments, every minutes, every second with u)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
misses.
why friendship are so fragile??
it took months to make us so close together,
but it jus took days to make us fall apart.
sign...
i really treasure this friendship tt we used to had
but why??
i didn't wish to end this friendship
i don mean to hurt u,(if i did)
but am i wrong to leave??
maybe i jus can't understand
how u felt upon my leaving
i tot we can be good pals like we used to be
but i never expect u would c me as heartless person
do u know, u'r like a father to me
treating me so well, showing care n concern
i really enjoy those days we had together
but now all this has become a part of our memories
but now all this has become a part of our memories
i guess there's no way tt we can be pals again??
till now, yr images r still flashing thru my mind
whenever i listen to tt song
i really miss u, do u know tt??
afterall i treat u as my pal
n i hope u'r doing well now.
i really wish we can be good pals again,
like we used to be....
(sadly , u became a part of my memories.)
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Baby....
Baby!
do u know how much i love u??
when ever i with you,
its feel like we are in a world of ours.
i never care of how strangers
look at or think of us.
in my world,
there's is only one person exist
n the person is u baby.
u own my heart,
n i own yours.
i belong to u,
n u belong to me.
we r meant for each other
knowing u is fated,
loving u is blissed.
we need support from each other
we would be lost without each other
athought sometimes we do
have our unhappy moments,
but tt's shows tt we how much we
care for each other.
these words i said,
its from the bottom of my heart(:
Baby, i jus wanted to say...
sometimes, i do behaved,
act n even think like a kid
for example u always say
i keep complaining tired
but end up i was with my pals
look baby,
i'm jus like a kid,
if there's fun going on
i definitely would go
without any second thoughts
but after using up my energy or
start to get bored.....
i'll start complianing tired again-_-
u must be thinking like wtf right?
haha!! (laughing)
i know u'r rather upset with yrself
because u didn't revised enough
for the past few days.
this is y i said i'm rather
disappointed in u, when u
got the time to revise today.
i was wrong about u,
i tot u didn't take this exam seriously.
but now i could understand how u feel(:
sorry for the misunderstood.
it normal tt u reacted this way,
i did not blame u for tt.
in fact, i really gonna quit
for the sake of u...
gimmi me some time ok??
jus a few more weeks
n u will b flying to aust
will MISS u like crazy can??!!
denfitly i'll not used to it without
mgsing u even jus for a day.
n u'r going there for 5 days
or even longer!!??
wondering how will it be....
will u secretly hide under yr blanket
n tears because of missing me too much??
haha!!(crying out loud)
i think i'll laugh non stop
if u gonna tell me this when u'r
back from yr trip!!
haha!!(laughing)
I'll denfinitly miss u baby....
i don care ar!! u better send me all
your "sis's" pictures before u go ar!!
i must c her every night before
i could get asleep!!
hahalala!!!!
(Missing u. loves.)
do u know how much i love u??
when ever i with you,
its feel like we are in a world of ours.
i never care of how strangers
look at or think of us.
in my world,
there's is only one person exist
n the person is u baby.
u own my heart,
n i own yours.
i belong to u,
n u belong to me.
we r meant for each other
knowing u is fated,
loving u is blissed.
we need support from each other
we would be lost without each other
athought sometimes we do
have our unhappy moments,
but tt's shows tt we how much we
care for each other.
these words i said,
its from the bottom of my heart(:
Baby, i jus wanted to say...
sometimes, i do behaved,
act n even think like a kid
for example u always say
i keep complaining tired
but end up i was with my pals
look baby,
i'm jus like a kid,
if there's fun going on
i definitely would go
without any second thoughts
but after using up my energy or
start to get bored.....
i'll start complianing tired again-_-
u must be thinking like wtf right?
haha!! (laughing)
i know u'r rather upset with yrself
because u didn't revised enough
for the past few days.
this is y i said i'm rather
disappointed in u, when u
got the time to revise today.
i was wrong about u,
i tot u didn't take this exam seriously.
but now i could understand how u feel(:
sorry for the misunderstood.
it normal tt u reacted this way,
i did not blame u for tt.
in fact, i really gonna quit
for the sake of u...
gimmi me some time ok??
jus a few more weeks
n u will b flying to aust
will MISS u like crazy can??!!
denfitly i'll not used to it without
mgsing u even jus for a day.
n u'r going there for 5 days
or even longer!!??
wondering how will it be....
will u secretly hide under yr blanket
n tears because of missing me too much??
haha!!(crying out loud)
i think i'll laugh non stop
if u gonna tell me this when u'r
back from yr trip!!
haha!!(laughing)
I'll denfinitly miss u baby....
i don care ar!! u better send me all
your "sis's" pictures before u go ar!!
i must c her every night before
i could get asleep!!
hahalala!!!!
(Missing u. loves.)
Friday, April 30, 2010
Friendship?
what is friendship??
how do u tells whether is it a true friendship?
or not?
A friendship takes time to be bulided,
but everything can be destory
within a second
end up,
its takes longer time to recover it.
when u treat someone as your friend,
have u ever wonder
if that person treatted u as a friend too?
(what is friendship)
how do u tells whether is it a true friendship?
or not?
A friendship takes time to be bulided,
but everything can be destory
within a second
end up,
its takes longer time to recover it.
when u treat someone as your friend,
have u ever wonder
if that person treatted u as a friend too?
(what is friendship)
Thursday, April 29, 2010
A jar of sands.
This jar represent 
yr life,
each time problems encounter
all yr problems will be thrown into the jar.
big problems, occupied more of the space
golf balls,-represent all those big problems
small problem occupied lesser of the space
sand,-represent all those problems
ok, imagine a box of golf balls were pour inside,
now the jar is filled with golf balls.
if i'm gonna pour in a cup of sand,
do u think it can fit?
of course!
so now the jar is full n filled with golf balls n sand....
here's the main point, like i said sand represents all
those small tt u encounted.
so, imagine a few cup of sands were being pour in,
yr life,each time problems encounter
all yr problems will be thrown into the jar.
big problems, occupied more of the space
golf balls,-represent all those big problems
small problem occupied lesser of the space
sand,-represent all those problems
ok, imagine a box of golf balls were pour inside,
now the jar is filled with golf balls.
if i'm gonna pour in a cup of sand,
do u think it can fit?
of course!
so now the jar is full n filled with golf balls n sand....
here's the main point, like i said sand represents all
those small tt u encounted.
so, imagine a few cup of sands were being pour in,
so, do u think those golf balls r still able to fit in??
of course not!!
that is why....
don't always let those small problems bothers u.
don't ever let yr jar full n filled with only sands,
cause u'll never have space for other stuffs(:
since its jus those small problems,
take it easy,
learn to take things lightly.
big problems, try to dissolve it to small problem,
small problem, try to dissolve it to no problem!!!
hahaha!!!
that's the way of life!!....
LIFE
do think life is unfair??
some ppl may think is unfair
but it depends how u look it
try look out of the picture
n think,
what makes u feel life is unfair??
n look at all the ppl around u,
does anyone who lead a perfect life??
certain things tt they have,
u might not have it.
but certain things tt you have,
others might not having it.
don't always envy others n blame
life is unfair.
cause,
u'll never realised how many ppl r envy of u,
n the life tt u'r leading on (:
you'll get, whatever u gave
you'll be treated, the way u treat others
what's comes around, goes around....
so treat ppl the way,
u wanted to b treated (:
(life isn't unfair)
some ppl may think is unfair
but it depends how u look it
try look out of the picture
n think,
what makes u feel life is unfair??
n look at all the ppl around u,
does anyone who lead a perfect life??
certain things tt they have,
u might not have it.
but certain things tt you have,
others might not having it.
don't always envy others n blame
life is unfair.
cause,
u'll never realised how many ppl r envy of u,
n the life tt u'r leading on (:
you'll get, whatever u gave
you'll be treated, the way u treat others
what's comes around, goes around....
so treat ppl the way,
u wanted to b treated (:
(life isn't unfair)
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
working life....
hmmm....
from a "temp" staff to a "perm" staff,
actually not really tt tough as imagine la!
haha!!!
but i really got to plan things to do for everyday
planing is my weakness -_-
i don really like planing,
cos i hate it whenever my plan ruined!!
arhh....
of cos i do feel satisfied when
my plan went accordingly n smoothly
i really dislike it when planned much
end up, all my efforts went down to drain-_-
althought we will always have plan B to back up
but, things will jus happen unexpectedly
how many back up plan has to made??
to make sure yr plan will go smoothly?
haiz....
to me, i'll b more upset if my plan ruin.
so i rather i plan nothing!!
that is y i never plan for my furture
i jus take one step at a time(;
well, this is my part of my thinking
others may not agree with me(:
(happy goes lucky!)
from a "temp" staff to a "perm" staff,
actually not really tt tough as imagine la!
haha!!!
but i really got to plan things to do for everyday
planing is my weakness -_-
i don really like planing,
cos i hate it whenever my plan ruined!!
arhh....
of cos i do feel satisfied when
my plan went accordingly n smoothly
i really dislike it when planned much
end up, all my efforts went down to drain-_-
althought we will always have plan B to back up
but, things will jus happen unexpectedly
how many back up plan has to made??
to make sure yr plan will go smoothly?
haiz....
to me, i'll b more upset if my plan ruin.
so i rather i plan nothing!!
that is y i never plan for my furture
i jus take one step at a time(;
well, this is my part of my thinking
others may not agree with me(:
(happy goes lucky!)
Monday, April 12, 2010
Time flies....
Time passed damn fast.
two months ago,
i was a temp staff
n today i was convert to a full-time staff(=
isn't fast??
n this wed will be Ira's last day le.....
gotto buy her a meal before she leave.
oh ya!!!
she's the one who intro me this job!!
really gotto to thanks her!
if not, i guess i'll still stuck'in that stupid company!!
haha!!! That company is stupid, but i'm not refering to the kind boss. haha!!!
weee.....
from the effect of tml,
i'll start working as a full-timer le....
which mean my pay will incease!!!
haha!!!!
but... so do my workload will b incease too...
haiz.... tt's make me sigh....
i wonder how will it be like....
hmmmm......
we shall c tml.
hopefully, i'm able to cope ah!!!....
haha!!!
JIA YOU!!! ESTHER!!! U CAN DO IT!!!
two months ago,
i was a temp staff
n today i was convert to a full-time staff(=
isn't fast??
n this wed will be Ira's last day le.....
gotto buy her a meal before she leave.
oh ya!!!
she's the one who intro me this job!!
really gotto to thanks her!
if not, i guess i'll still stuck'in that stupid company!!
haha!!! That company is stupid, but i'm not refering to the kind boss. haha!!!
weee.....
from the effect of tml,
i'll start working as a full-timer le....
which mean my pay will incease!!!
haha!!!!
but... so do my workload will b incease too...
haiz.... tt's make me sigh....
i wonder how will it be like....
hmmmm......
we shall c tml.
hopefully, i'm able to cope ah!!!....
haha!!!
JIA YOU!!! ESTHER!!! U CAN DO IT!!!
Self-Control
Esther ar, Esther!!...
u better control yr temper ar!!
if not things gonna to worst man!
so control, control n control.
haha!!
u better control yr temper ar!!
if not things gonna to worst man!
so control, control n control.
haha!!
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Haiz....
What to do next???
her mom just found out that we r together!
how how??
Are we still able to meet each other like usual??
ahhhhhhh.......
her mom just found out that we r together!
how how??
Are we still able to meet each other like usual??
ahhhhhhh.......
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Enjoying!
What a hot weather.
the sun is so bright,
my eyes can't even open wide.
but nothing is better than,
my cool icy chocolate mint
ice cream!!! damn shiok sia!!!
relaxing, listening to music....
and this is life man!!
when its time to rest,
u have to rest.
when its to relaxes,
u have to relaxes.... n
enjoy yr life. I'm enjoying now
before my working life starts again(:
~Relaxes(=
Yesterday is past,
Tomorrow is a surprise,
Today is a gift.
u will never know what
will happen tomorrow.
so live your life as there's
is no tomorrow.
then u will find it more
meaningful each day!
~Cherises
the sun is so bright,
my eyes can't even open wide.
but nothing is better than,
my cool icy chocolate mint
ice cream!!! damn shiok sia!!!
relaxing, listening to music....
and this is life man!!
when its time to rest,
u have to rest.
when its to relaxes,
u have to relaxes.... n
enjoy yr life. I'm enjoying now
before my working life starts again(:
~Relaxes(=
Yesterday is past,
Tomorrow is a surprise,
Today is a gift.
u will never know what
will happen tomorrow.
so live your life as there's
is no tomorrow.
then u will find it more
meaningful each day!
~Cherises
Together!
Today, (monday, 25th of jan)
I went town to meet up with peiyi n tt pig as i also need to pass my ah ma's death cert to my manager. as i walk into my ex shop,its feel so unfamiliar, weird feeling. that is the place tt i used to spent most my time at there. its like my second home, but i not sure y i having the weird feeling as i step into the shop.
Anyway, tt's not important. Wat's makes me feel the most, is when the "Auntie" of the pushcart owner told me tt she so not used to it, for not seeing me working in tt shop!! seriously i was like laughing inside!! a bit touched by what she say. haha!! then she keep telling me tt which ever company, employs me is really damn lucky!! haha!! tt auntie really make my day sia!!! haha!!!
After my late lunch/ early dinner @ cine, we walked all the way to city hall! damn tiring sia!!! haha!! then the girls enjoy their window shopping, while i keep yawning all the along. opps!! haha!! until we reach the..... what do u call tt.... the place which has lots of games machine de!!
at first, i rejected py for playing the basketball game end up i playing with her, during half way after the game starts. haha!! suddenly feel like playing ma!!! haha!!! end up both of us scored 400 over points sia!! wat a great partner man!! haha!! i never scored so much before sia!!
this was my first time sia!! thanks to py!! haha!!!
Again...after playing, the girls complaining they thirsty, so we decide to get drinks from that bubble tea shop. before i starts to hungry, i was tempted by the menu(the pasta). after a few mins of waiting, the food appears in front of me!! I had a mouthful of the pasta, n its was true to say tt~do not judge a book by its cover, so today i learned something new today! tt is
~do not judge the taste by its picture!!! ohoh!!! haha!! like i agreed with pig, we can cook better than this la!... haha!! the best part is when the uncle asked me how the taste like? i jus simply anwered him tt i don't really eat pasta de!! then he totally speechless sia!! haha!!!
Back to tpy....
at e end of the day we gather ev
ery one at tpy inter!! (: but
too bad py had to after xb reached.
but lucky we took some pics before she goes! (; well, hope we can meet up as a group again!!! take care everyone!!! (:
After a long day..... as usual, tt fishball meet us out for supper again. so we had supper at mac which located at nearby alan's bus stop there. i surppose tt fishball in a good mood today, cos she treated me nuggets!!! wow haha!!! she ordered a 20pcs nuggets! end up she can't finish it so i was force to finsh it! which makes me damn full!! haha!!
this is how i spent day today!! (:
~spent your life to the fullest!!!
I went town to meet up with peiyi n tt pig as i also need to pass my ah ma's death cert to my manager. as i walk into my ex shop,its feel so unfamiliar, weird feeling. that is the place tt i used to spent most my time at there. its like my second home, but i not sure y i having the weird feeling as i step into the shop.
Anyway, tt's not important. Wat's makes me feel the most, is when the "Auntie" of the pushcart owner told me tt she so not used to it, for not seeing me working in tt shop!! seriously i was like laughing inside!! a bit touched by what she say. haha!! then she keep telling me tt which ever company, employs me is really damn lucky!! haha!! tt auntie really make my day sia!!! haha!!!
After my late lunch/ early dinner @ cine, we walked all the way to city hall! damn tiring sia!!! haha!! then the girls enjoy their window shopping, while i keep yawning all the along. opps!! haha!! until we reach the..... what do u call tt.... the place which has lots of games machine de!!
at first, i rejected py for playing the basketball game end up i playing with her, during half way after the game starts. haha!! suddenly feel like playing ma!!! haha!!! end up both of us scored 400 over points sia!! wat a great partner man!! haha!! i never scored so much before sia!!
this was my first time sia!! thanks to py!! haha!!!
Again...after playing, the girls complaining they thirsty, so we decide to get drinks from that bubble tea shop. before i starts to hungry, i was tempted by the menu(the pasta). after a few mins of waiting, the food appears in front of me!! I had a mouthful of the pasta, n its was true to say tt~do not judge a book by its cover, so today i learned something new today! tt is
~do not judge the taste by its picture!!! ohoh!!! haha!! like i agreed with pig, we can cook better than this la!... haha!! the best part is when the uncle asked me how the taste like? i jus simply anwered him tt i don't really eat pasta de!! then he totally speechless sia!! haha!!!
Back to tpy....
at e end of the day we gather ev
ery one at tpy inter!! (: but
too bad py had to after xb reached.but lucky we took some pics before she goes! (; well, hope we can meet up as a group again!!! take care everyone!!! (:
After a long day..... as usual, tt fishball meet us out for supper again. so we had supper at mac which located at nearby alan's bus stop there. i surppose tt fishball in a good mood today, cos she treated me nuggets!!! wow haha!!! she ordered a 20pcs nuggets! end up she can't finish it so i was force to finsh it! which makes me damn full!! haha!!
this is how i spent day today!! (:
~spent your life to the fullest!!!
Freedom!!!
oh!! yeah!!!
I'm finally free now!!!
ever since I'm out of that company,
i feeling damn good sia!!!
no more stress!!! haha!!!
so relaxes!!
I'm enjoying my life now!!!
of cos I'm feeling sad too la.
i also don't bear to leave.....
but for the sake of my happiness....
i still feel damn happy to leave!!! WEEE!!
haha!!! prepare for the same old Esther!
I'm back again!! no more emo days!!
haha!!! the funny Esther is back on track again!!!
lets welcome me back again!! lame... -_-!!
haha!!
~Be happy!! (;
I'm finally free now!!!
ever since I'm out of that company,
i feeling damn good sia!!!
no more stress!!! haha!!!
so relaxes!!
I'm enjoying my life now!!!
of cos I'm feeling sad too la.
i also don't bear to leave.....
but for the sake of my happiness....
i still feel damn happy to leave!!! WEEE!!
haha!!! prepare for the same old Esther!
I'm back again!! no more emo days!!
haha!!! the funny Esther is back on track again!!!
lets welcome me back again!! lame... -_-!!
haha!!
~Be happy!! (;
Thursday, January 21, 2010
50 : 50
yesterday night i met boss
when i was half way doing closing.
he know that I'm resigning.
n told me lots of things,
including his family problems
i was rather shock when he told me all this
he also added that he seldom talk
so much to anyone.
n of cos i was pleased to hear that,
i know he's a nice boss.
he treated me well
i also don wish to disappoint him
he wants me to stay n help him.
he knows my strong points n weak points
he said he need someone like me in his company
someone who has lots of new ideas.
out of sudden he look at me into my eyes, n
I was totally speechless, when he look at me,
and says "i really need your help...Tan"
my heart was sink at that moment.
i was shocked.
when i look at his eyes, i can feel that he really wants me to stay
at that moment i actually had a urge to tell him that
i will stay on and help u....
but my other part of me insist to quit
everyone in the company don't wish to loose me.
but all my friends and my family members
support me for leaving.
me, myself wanted to leave but also wanted to stay.
help!!! can someone help me with this!!!!!!!!
(advices needed)
when i was half way doing closing.
he know that I'm resigning.
n told me lots of things,
including his family problems
i was rather shock when he told me all this
he also added that he seldom talk
so much to anyone.
n of cos i was pleased to hear that,
i know he's a nice boss.
he treated me well
i also don wish to disappoint him
he wants me to stay n help him.
he knows my strong points n weak points
he said he need someone like me in his company
someone who has lots of new ideas.
out of sudden he look at me into my eyes, n
I was totally speechless, when he look at me,
and says "i really need your help...Tan"
my heart was sink at that moment.
i was shocked.
when i look at his eyes, i can feel that he really wants me to stay
at that moment i actually had a urge to tell him that
i will stay on and help u....
but my other part of me insist to quit
everyone in the company don't wish to loose me.
but all my friends and my family members
support me for leaving.
me, myself wanted to leave but also wanted to stay.
help!!! can someone help me with this!!!!!!!!
(advices needed)
Monday, January 18, 2010
bad days.......
Haiz.....
Ever since my grandma passes away,
my life is totally sucks!
facing lots of 'never ending' problems
first, is my work problem
they keep thinking, i'm selfish
i only think of myself.
never spare a thoughts for others,
i love myself more than people around me.
i betray them, for leaving them
i'm ruthless.
now they say that i want to have a clear cut with them.
oh pls!
whose the one who started it first?
ya! i know u guys treated me well.
but i have been treated like dog!
shouted at me infront of anyone
teased me in front of customers
comparing me and my staff!
scolded me like hell, over a small matter
work overtime almost everyday!
work so hard, and this the result i get.
what i did, is lesser than what i get back.
i was stupid enough to say that i want stay there forever!!!
if my pay will have much better then before,
they beg to stay, i wont stay lor pls!!!
i have my pride!
i will not ill-treated myself because of money!
and i have better offer outside
y would i want to stay and treated like a slave?!!
Ever since my grandma passes away,
my life is totally sucks!
facing lots of 'never ending' problems
first, is my work problem
they keep thinking, i'm selfish
i only think of myself.
never spare a thoughts for others,
i love myself more than people around me.
i betray them, for leaving them
i'm ruthless.
now they say that i want to have a clear cut with them.
oh pls!
whose the one who started it first?
ya! i know u guys treated me well.
but i have been treated like dog!
shouted at me infront of anyone
teased me in front of customers
comparing me and my staff!
scolded me like hell, over a small matter
work overtime almost everyday!
work so hard, and this the result i get.
what i did, is lesser than what i get back.
i was stupid enough to say that i want stay there forever!!!
if my pay will have much better then before,
they beg to stay, i wont stay lor pls!!!
i have my pride!
i will not ill-treated myself because of money!
and i have better offer outside
y would i want to stay and treated like a slave?!!
Confuse...
i'm not sure what extactly i want.
feeling unsure.
donno should i step forward or not?
what if i take the wrong steps?
will it be more worst?
i'm jus afraid.
but if i never tried,
i will never know e answer.
jus scared.........
(timid)
feeling unsure.
donno should i step forward or not?
what if i take the wrong steps?
will it be more worst?
i'm jus afraid.
but if i never tried,
i will never know e answer.
jus scared.........
(timid)
Thursday, January 14, 2010
A Quiet day....
Today
its was an quiet day.
the mall wasn't crowded
the shop is totally quiet without the music on
no laughers, no noisers.
feeling emptyness.
lot of things running through my mind
my soul was away from my body
floating away, to somewhere.
(Wondering soul)
haiz.....
i just scolded my staff today, realised that a lot of thing she don't even know how to handle or even the price of an item. she been working here for at least four months or maybe longer. but how can she don't even know the basic stuffs? i really got nothing to say. everyone agree that she's the worst one but sometimes i keep wondering is it partly my fault? cause i admit that i always spent the least time with her. cause i would rather busy teaching other staffs especially those fast learners. i know this has been unfair to her, but i must have one of staff have to complete it first right? if not, all of my staffs only know a bit of that n a bit of another stuffs. then it will never be a ending story right? actually my thoughts is to teach these staff that capable first, so after they complete it, i can mainly focus on her. but this company like to shift staffs around. bloody hell can!!! sometimes i teach so well end up my staff at another outlet. -_-
but what to do? its my duty to train new staff ma.... but seriously i enjoy working as a so called "trainer". ha ha!!!
a supervisor will never be a easy role.
The Truth of an Supervisor.
To act as a Bomb shelter,
for each time the "sky" drops a bomb .....
you'll be the first one to get it.
To act as a superhero,
so at any time your staff needs help,
you'll must be there for them....
To act as a technician,
so for any machine or stocks damage or faulty,
you must try to fix it....
To act as a counsellor,
so whenever your staff is feeling depressed or down,
you'll be the one who counsel them...
To act as a doctor,
so in order not let your staff get sick leave,
you'll be the one who monital their health....
See!!! supervisor don't only act as a role.
add up all together, by right we have 5 roles to act as!!!
isn't tough??? ha ha!!!
(A multi purpose supervisor)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Confusion.
Why things become like this,
I also don't know,
what i want.
committed so much,
its true i that i did not
gain nothing.
but I'm just feeling tired of
every little thing.
sales bad, what can i do?
force people to buy?
shop messy,
trying my best to arrange
everything in order.
neat n tidy.
but any compliment?
yes? maybe.
working for long hours,
having fun,
at times.
having stress,
most of the time.
decided to leave
but i was asked to stay.
i was told that
everything can be adjust
even the working hours.
suddenly had a
urge to stay.
but when think back,
the days i had
its tiring.
i was told that
I'm a good worker
because of,
my commitment and
not my performance.
so what's the point of
staying?
there's no point of staying.
its indeed that i been
treated well.
but there's thing which
wouldn't explain in words nor
expressing either.
a part of me, don't bear to leave.
other part of me, wish
i would leave asap.
what's wrong with me?
why can't i make up my mind?
but i was afraid to start all over again
i was afraid to adept,
a different place,
a different working style,
a bunch of new working friends.
i don't mind that i quit as a RS
n start all over again as a staff.
but I'm just afraid of .....
well, i not sure what i afraid of?
this is not the first time.
then what is the barrier
that stopping me?
can someone tell me?
I'm stuck'in underneath.
don't know should i get out
or just leave me alone.
(someone who is lost)
Why things become like this,
I also don't know,
what i want.
committed so much,
its true i that i did not
gain nothing.
but I'm just feeling tired of
every little thing.
sales bad, what can i do?
force people to buy?
shop messy,
trying my best to arrange
everything in order.
neat n tidy.
but any compliment?
yes? maybe.
working for long hours,
having fun,
at times.
having stress,
most of the time.
decided to leave
but i was asked to stay.
i was told that
everything can be adjust
even the working hours.
suddenly had a
urge to stay.
but when think back,
the days i had
its tiring.
i was told that
I'm a good worker
because of,
my commitment and
not my performance.
so what's the point of
staying?
there's no point of staying.
its indeed that i been
treated well.
but there's thing which
wouldn't explain in words nor
expressing either.
a part of me, don't bear to leave.
other part of me, wish
i would leave asap.
what's wrong with me?
why can't i make up my mind?
but i was afraid to start all over again
i was afraid to adept,
a different place,
a different working style,
a bunch of new working friends.
i don't mind that i quit as a RS
n start all over again as a staff.
but I'm just afraid of .....
well, i not sure what i afraid of?
this is not the first time.
then what is the barrier
that stopping me?
can someone tell me?
I'm stuck'in underneath.
don't know should i get out
or just leave me alone.
(someone who is lost)
Monday, January 11, 2010
life without her.
why am i still holding on?
i should the one feeling happy.
but I'm not. Why?
thought its already over?
she's already moving on.
i wish i would too
her image is all stores in my mind
can't get her out of it.
i would be happier if i would,
totally forget about her.
I'm selfish,
i took someone as a replacement.
end up both of us suffer.
its easy to say,
but it will never be easy to forget someone
whom you really love deeply with.
its hard for me to commit
on an brand new relationship.
cos I'm tired,
in fact, i dare not to.
in the past,
thought we would last
really thought of.
and i never ever imaged
that she actually fall for a guy.
a guy that ever cused us
out of so many guys out there
why she choose him?
is promises that she gave me
make me feel assure that
she wont leave me.
i gave her my whole heart
but she broke it.
i treated her so nice
always give in to her
whatever she wants,
i will my best to get for her.
but end up what I get in return?
seeing her holding hands
with that fucker?
I guess i had already lost
hope in relationship.
i really don't dare to step into it.
its like a deep pool,
without any flooding object and
at any moment i can be drowned.
it has become a phobia.
a nightmare.
haiz.....
how i wish i can ease everything part of her.
at least i will feel better and i can start moving on.
hope things will come to the end.
anyway i also want her to be happy.
that's my wish for her(:
i should the one feeling happy.
but I'm not. Why?
thought its already over?
she's already moving on.
i wish i would too
her image is all stores in my mind
can't get her out of it.
i would be happier if i would,
totally forget about her.
I'm selfish,
i took someone as a replacement.
end up both of us suffer.
its easy to say,
but it will never be easy to forget someone
whom you really love deeply with.
its hard for me to commit
on an brand new relationship.
cos I'm tired,
in fact, i dare not to.
in the past,
thought we would last
really thought of.
and i never ever imaged
that she actually fall for a guy.
a guy that ever cused us
out of so many guys out there
why she choose him?
is promises that she gave me
make me feel assure that
she wont leave me.
i gave her my whole heart
but she broke it.
i treated her so nice
always give in to her
whatever she wants,
i will my best to get for her.
but end up what I get in return?
seeing her holding hands
with that fucker?
I guess i had already lost
hope in relationship.
i really don't dare to step into it.
its like a deep pool,
without any flooding object and
at any moment i can be drowned.
it has become a phobia.
a nightmare.
haiz.....
how i wish i can ease everything part of her.
at least i will feel better and i can start moving on.
hope things will come to the end.
anyway i also want her to be happy.
that's my wish for her(:
life is short.
as the time passes,
a lot of things happen recently.
things are different from the past,
people are getting older,
everything has been changing.
somethings become better,
somethings become more worst.
when talk about life,
what can we say?
life is short,
anything can happen to us at any moment.
living in this world,
can i say that the only goal everyone have is to study hard,
earn lots money,
get married, set up a family,
in Eventually u gets old and die one day
and everything has to be remained in this world.
Everything u own,
will passes down to someone else.
(so whats the point?)
Haiz, so what if i keep working so hard?? i mean 12 hours a day, can't even had a chance to chat with my parent. i really don't have any time left for my family n friends. its true to say that family always come first. because if anything happens, your family members Will always be there for u. I really don't care what i have already archived on my career. after my grandma passes away, has make me realised anyone can just leave. anyday. anytime.
anyway, i really need a break!!! i need some rest can? just let me resign ba. if i choose to stay, it won't the same old me. because i had already lost instest in it, so no point forcing me to stay. really no point. pls just let me go....
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